I have been waiting for April 27th since February.  I was in the hospital for ten days with a perforated bowel and knew that surgery was on the horizon.  Because of a full schedule for my surgeon, my surgery wasn’t able to be scheduled until April 27th.  Now I am almost there.  It’s only four days away.  I am not worried about the actual surgery. I do have some anxiety, but that’s normal for any surgery. What I am really dreading is the cleansing prep I have to do on Monday. It’s called MoviPrep.  I love the names they give these preps.  Wonder who came up with Golytley?  I was really hoping for Miralax and Gatorade, but I guess it’s not good enough for surgery.  I have read that MoviPrep has a salty flavor so I am hoping that’s true.  I am not a huge sweets fan especially when it comes to drinking icky prep.  I will be up early on Tuesday so I can be at the hospital at 6 am.  Then it’s surgery at 7:30 am. It’s going to be a long day.  I am somewhat dreading having to get up for the first time after surgery and am hoping the nurses give me 24 hours.  I have hinted to Bill that a recliner for Mother’s Day would be nice.  I am trying to figure out where I will sleep when I get home.  I know I won’t be able to sleep very comfortably in my bed especially when my little one comes in every morning between 3 and 4 am to climb into bed.  The climbing usually means climbing over me to get to the middle of the bed.   I will have about a 15 inch scar running down my abdomen so having a two year old climb over me wouldn’t be a good thing.  I am really thankful for my family and friends. They are all so supportive and it has really helped me get to this point.  I know the quality of my life will be better.  For the last five months or so, I have basically checked out.  I have pain every day and don’t have the energy to do things.  I feel guilt that I haven’t been a better mom.  The boys are awesome and know that I don’t feel well.  They try to help me with things around the house. It has been hard on them especially Billy. Luckily, he will be able to come visit me.  In February all of the area hospitals didn’t allow children under the age of 18 to visit because  of the H1N1 flu and the seasonal flu. That ban has been lifted so I am hoping it will help Billy to be able to visit me so he won’t feel the anxiety he felt in February.  Bill has a lot on his plate.  He has a sick spouse, working, taking two college classes and is involved in Boy Scouts.  I know he is under stress, but he keeps it together.  So, Tuesday is a big day for all of us.  It’s going to be a long road. I will still have Crohn;’s disease after the surgery, but it will be worth it to feel better once again.